emotions

EMOTIONS

How amazing the life is.....how nice it would be to live with no emotions, no wishes and no regrets......When i dared and took a decision first time in my life, it gave me such a bitter taste on my mouth where i can never again be confident in life about making a choice........When i took responsibility for my decision and tried to deliver the best, it was like pressing on every moment through hell......When i decided to not give up going even in the hell, god has given answers by taking away the one for whom i made a decision for and paid the price for....When i was releaved that i am out of the hell, i was surprised to realize that i have much more to press on caz life has to go on no matter what....When i reached a point where i forgot that i am a living being and started coping with denial, life seemed as if it went on without much efforts.....When i felt like ending up my life where i thought i have no one and i am no one to anyone, a hope ray entered in my life....When the ground of my denial shook and i started accepting my feelings, i realized i am a human with lot of emotions suppressed....When i started letting my emotions to come out, i lost my wisdom.....and i was driven by my emotions...When that happened, i noticed that i forgot the lessons that i taught to others... and i continued to live knowingly though i know that is not how it should be.....When i broke my denial and started living real life in reality, i realized what i have missed in my life for so long....When i letted myself know what i have missed upon, i dared to take a decision again with running a risk.....When i understood that it is risky, I asked god why am i getting into situations like this and why isnt my life normal..... Then i remembered the situations that i came across and realized people who cant do much about someone's pain will have more hurt & helplessness than the actual one who is suffering....When i decided to not give that kind of hurt to my loved one, for a moment i felt like suppressing my emotions again...When one has to live life it is all about living... with emotions....no matter how lonely one is, emotions will always accompany....When i noticed i still have emotions, i am glad that i am still living...with my heart longing for someone's heart....Finally i discovered that one can live either when they love or when they are loved....Love is the secret of life...Life is the sacred of love.....